As I sit here eating my homemade McMuffin, drinking coffee, and listening to “Love Bites” by Def Leppard, I reflect. I weighed myself this morning and my numbers are 186.0. The scale is still going down and that’s a good thing.
I think my battle this week will be more mental and emotional than anything. Weight loss is so much more than just a scale going down. It’s a mental and emotional battle. As your body size goes down, you have to adjust your mind’s view of your body. I used to be almost a size 20, and I lost enough weight to wear a 10 but I still saw myself as that 20. Right now I could probably fit in a 16 and it’d be loose, but I wear a 14. Some people look great in a 14. I, however, as a 5 foot 1 inch chick look like a giant toad. 😂 I mean, I think toads are funny but I don’t want to look like one.
The battle I’m facing this week is negativity. Thoughts are rolling in my head like boiling water that I’ll never be thinner. That I’ll never hit that ideal 130. That I’ll be stuck in this rut I’m in forever. Those are some depressing thoughts! Even Christians battle thoughts like that, and as a Christian I can go to prayer and Scripture to battle these nasty thoughts. Isaiah 43:2 says, “When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you.” (New Living Translation) I’m clinging to that this week.
On a lighter note, my eating hasn’t been too bad this week. I’ve been drinking more tea than Coke, and I’ve made the conscious decision to park further from stores so I can get more walking in. I still park close to a cart return, but they have them scattered all over the parking lot.
My caregivee is battling a lot of negativity today. They’re also being recommended for a hand specialist to help wake up their wrist. It just doesn’t seem to want to come back from its “vacation” (aka surgery). The physical therapist is trying to get the recommendation for them, but we’re having a bit of trouble getting a hold of the surgeon so he can put the referral in. If you think about it, please say a prayer that things will work out this week for that.
That’s my update for this week, folks! It’s going to be another wild week of fun with therapy. Next week, though, will be nuts! I’ll tell you about it next time. Until then, stay healthy my friends! 🤗